Whats happened to me?

When I came back to Michigan I fought for God in my own way. I wanted to work for the Lord so he showed me a path that wasnt easy. To tell the truth it seemed to me that no one believed in me. I praise God that he always has faith in us that he died for us and is ministering for us. I realized today how little faith people had in me and how much I proved them wrong. I did not feel satisfied to hear that I defied their expectaions of me. I cried harder than I have in a long time. At that time it was God and I. It was us against the world. It was my goal to be where I am at now but what happened to that? Now that people believe in me I lose my fire? Lord have mercy on my soul. Please dont let me feel comfortable just being where Im at. Help me to once again defy the sceptics even the sceptic within. Thank you Lord for waking me up...

To my new home

Its been a long time and a lot of things happened since I last posted. God has opened lots of doors. I recieved many offers for me to bible work and LE its been a blessing and as a result I decided to go to Sault Sainte Marie. It was the best place for me to grow. It wasnt the highest paying but it doesnt need to be. I want to be mentored and I want to improve the skills I already have so I logically picked the one in which Ill grow closer to the Lord. Since then Ive been struggling with something and its begining to take me down. I realize that I need to put more effort into it but its been there for a long time and its really hard to stop. Please pray for me.